I thought this was over. But it's not. I'm still hanging on.

It's so hard for me to accept this, but I'm trying. I still miss the old you. Wish we could give this another try. What's happening? I'm tired, and upset, but I don't want you to leave. I may be selfish but I want to keep you, forever.

Anyway, went to zouk yesterday and I got myself a new daddy to take care of me! Haha hansel la that boy took really good care of me excpet that I realised I have many bruises on my arms and legs? Probably knocking into people while walking or knocking into things... what's new? I'm always that careless.

It was one crazy night, wish we could go back to the start. I miss how we held each other in the arms. This feeling won't go away, this intense feeling... Are you feeling the same way as I do? You told me you didn't want to hurt me but what are you doing? Why are you so mean? Am probably not smart enough to guess what you're thinking this time. But I know it hurts you too. Or... am I thinking too much again? Missing you has almost become a habit already :/ But I'm getting used to this. This alone thing you've been trying to get across to me.